by Erica Leung~
Until recently I’ve been having a hard time trying to deal with the fact I am going to be 30 this month. I realized I can’t stop the inevitable so I decided to embrace the joys of entering a new era and use this time to better myself as a person.
During the first twenty nine years of my life I have been fighting an ongoing battle trying to find comfort within my own skin. In an Asian family, any type difference is viewed as a crime punishable by law so one can only imagine the way I was treated when I came out far less than perfect. I’ve been shunned by everyone at one point or another and they were not shy at all letting me know how much I didn’t belong in their “cookie cutter” world. I learned resentment an early age and even as I write this today, I still get a pit in my stomach when it comes to interacting with my dads side of the family.
In addition to not fitting in with the ones who should have loved me regardless of my issues, I also got the added bonus of not blending into the worlds mold either. I was far from your star athlete and I certainly wasn’t your annoying in your face cheerleader. I hated going to school as to me, it was another mandatory jail sentence to make my life miserable. It was 2,430 days or 13 years of being subjected to daily taunts by students and staff alike.
It wasn’t until I started taking my therapy sessions seriously that I was able to come into my own and accept the reality that having Autism is not a terrible tragedy unless I make it so. I cannot change everyone but I can change myself to become the best version of ME possible.